There have been points throughout my life and career that have really stopped me in my tracks. Whether that’s been for good or bad they have really hit me. As I sit and write this I’m at the end of what has been one of my best years to date in my personal life, financially & creatively and 2020 is set to be even bigger. I’m marrying the love of my life and ending The Dualers tour with a headline show at Wembley arena (that still feels surreal saying it). Yet in my personal life there has been some of the worst things that have ever happened. This came in the form of losing two friends who were taken from us far, far too early. The grief of this is still very much present in our household and has not been easy at all.
This leaves me with a strange feeling as part of me wants to jump and scream with joy while another part just wants to crawl under the duvet, eat junk food and binge Netflix shows while the sun completes cycle after cycle around me and the world. With these huge events also comes a deep sense of gratitude for the things that are in my life. An incredibly supportive partner who I love dearly, an incredible family who have shown nothing but support for my music my whole life, this family also is about to get a lot bigger with our wedding on the horizon, and a great group of colleagues and piers. Many of whom have become good friends too and are walking this journey with me.Not to mention all my long time friends who I hold so dearly, although we don’t get a lot of time together these days as we are spread all over the world they are in my heart and thoughts every day. For all of the above I feel very lucky.
Where am I going with all this?
I guess I’m trying to express the amount of gratitude I feel for my life. As one door closes another always seems to open to take me on another exciting journey. This time in the form of Al’s drum school, which is getting me out of bed very early with a child like excitement which I only hope carry’s me a long way. Education is something I value very highly not only as a drum tutor but across the board. There are a lot of young people who are not fortunate enough to have access to an education let alone a free one and I will jump at any opportunity to get involved with programmes or schemes in this field, particularly working with young people. They are our future!
I want to keep this one brief as I’m half way through scoffing a fry up so I’m going to wrap it up here.
As we near the end of each year I like to take stock about how the year has been. Personally, financially and emotionally and this year has thrown all of it at me thick and fast. There has definitely been a lot of tears but a whole lot of smiles and laughs too and here’s to many more in 2020 and beyond.